Consultation

The doctor agreed to increase the morphine dosage and to give mum a sleeping aid. If need be, additional injections can be administered. It will reduce her anxiety and feelings of pain and discomfort. Mum has been extremely agitated and looking very pained and anguished for the past twelve hours. It was a very rough night with little sleep.

"I'm right by your side, mama," I told her earlier, "I'll hold your hand..." Mum looked at me and nodded. She said nothing, but she nodded. She looked, at least for a moment, calmer.

"From our observation, two, three days," the doctor said. Perhaps today the IV will be removed. The doctor also advised not to feed her anything, for from what he can see, mum seems to be eating for our sake and less because she wants to eat. "Frankly, her insides may have become more blocked. And it is causing her discomfort to eat and drink too much."

Brother and I walked out of the consultation room (beautifully called "Room where the hearts meet 會心室). We seem have decided mum's life. The doctor said the most they can do is make her sleep more, because by sleeping mum is escaping from whatever pain may be there, whether physical or mental. The body will take it's natural course.

Soon, soon, mum will no longer be gasping laboriously for air...