10 March 2016

Reality

I woke up groaning and feeling so alone in the world...


Images lingered in my head, images and thoughts of mum, memories of a trip we once took together, perhaps one of the last ones...

Where was it? I cannot recall exactly... I somehow remember a restaurant, on a roadtrip, one of our last together, a wonderful meal, a glorious sunset, beautiful smiles, seeing mum happy, which was for a long time such a treat for her pain had gotten gradually worse and worse...

But was any of it real? Was it imagined?  Did any of it happen? Was I even there? Was she even there? Were we ever there together? Did anything happen at all?

All just muddled images in my mind. All perhaps conjurings of my mind and vague recollections of my memories...

Mum, did you ever exist? Were you ever there?  Did you ever leave such an impact on my life...?