There is a lot of anxiety in the air.
Across the land.
In the world.
With mounting deaths every single day, and the fear of getting infected, that anxiety, fear, higher incidence of lucid dreams all appear to be very natural.
For the last two hours or so, my roommate suddenly felt very unwell. Symptoms of nausea, dizziness, tingling sensations, and added to those, sudden sensations of euphoria that ebbed and flowed, and seeing strange lines, lights and spots over the past couple of days. It is all very puzzling. And worrying.
In times of crisis, there seem to be a spike of anxiety, and also conspiracy theories. About the link of growing installations of 5G towers, the takeover by reptilian overlords, conspiracy that the current coronavirus crisis is linked to an attempt by the medical community to vaccinate, or that Bill Gates' very prophetic TED talk 5yrs ago meant that he is in a conspiracy to depopulate and microchip every single person (he returned to TED to give us an enlightening account of how to respond and proceed).
Back in February, a friend suddenly asked me how I am doing, and whether
I felt "strange". I did, at the time, begin to have disturbed sleep and
also a general sense of unease (more so than usual), and these feelings
have persisted till now.
So it's been going on for around 2 months now, more or less coinciding
with the beginning of the coronavirus. In fact, I was in Asia at the end
of January, the very week of the lockdown of the epicentre Wuhan, so I
watched and followed the news of what was happening there very closely,
because I was physically almost right there. So at a time when the rest
of the world dismissed the coronavirus as a seasonal flu, I already had a
sense that it was something much bigger (...and sure enough, things
exploded by the latter half of February, beginning with Italy the week
of my birthday). This unease, and the sense of something drastic and
lasting began already back at the end of January.
The friend said a lot of things are changing and moving around. Planets retrograding,
causing cosmic shifts in energies that will be sure to affect everyone
on Earth. Sure enough, he had two bouts of "attacks" that made him fear
for his existence. The closest I could describe it (as it was described
to me) was rapturing. Transcending to some higher existence, going
beyond life and living. He said he was terrified, and that it tortured
his being so.
My roomie's symptoms seemed to have subsided after she lay in bed for
some time, and we just talked through things. But the idea that the
rapture, or the opening of the chakras or third eye, was in the back of
our minds.
What if something more cosmic, beyond-this-world is really happening?
What if, with the increased geopolitical tensions, self-interested actions, and increased xenophobia and racial tensions, are indeed realted to something bigger than the actual pandemic?
We are still unable to make sense of what is happening.
Because what is happening is unprecedented, and on such a global and
long-duration scale that we cannot understand or put it into
perspective.
A lot of people are lost, feeling aches and pains, feeling the pangs of anxiety and depression setting in.
This is a time for hope, even though hope seems to be in short supply.
Below a beautiful concert, Music for Hope, by Andrea Bocceli. The
contrast of the emptied/empty streets of familiar cities that are
usually bustling, with the moving music, is such a powerful expression
of the times.
