Wish

Now more than ever all I want to do is sleep, close my eyes and imagine there is someone holding me close, keeping me safe from harm and death. More than ever I want to close my eyes and have someone stroke my body and tell me there is life after all this...

Escape, I want so much to escape from this all, yet am filled with guilt for thinking this way because mum cannot get away... She can't even go to the little park next to our house without feeling like it's draining the life out of her.

I can sleep, sleep, sweet sleep so I don't have to think or see (though I'd still dream terrible dreams...).