Another dream left me crying and longing for mum... There was something with flying, and at some point someone said the line "reason to live, reason to go on living..."
The details have disappeared now after waking up and sobbing and hiding under the covers that eventually made me fall asleep again. It seems sleep is my escape these days, my escape from the world and escape from thinking and anxieties... But sleeping makes me dream, makes my longings and fears appear that torture me in my waking moments. This is such an unhealthy vicious cycle I cannot get out of.
must get out of bed and try to make myself smile.
The details have disappeared now after waking up and sobbing and hiding under the covers that eventually made me fall asleep again. It seems sleep is my escape these days, my escape from the world and escape from thinking and anxieties... But sleeping makes me dream, makes my longings and fears appear that torture me in my waking moments. This is such an unhealthy vicious cycle I cannot get out of.
must get out of bed and try to make myself smile.
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