Intense grief

I thought the feelings could be put at bay... But they came back, with a vengeance.

I found myself sobbing on the floor, grinding my teeth in intense pain and grief and trying to get back on my feet. But I could not. 

The sense of pain and loss is so intense, it is beyond words and beyond soothing. Tears shed when no one is there to see there... Are they tears at all?

Grief expressed when no one is there to hear the cries or calls for help, is that grief at all? 

Within a span of a  few minutes, I was reduced from someone who could do, do, do; work, work, work... To  some one who could not and who is so traumatised and frozen.