18 March 2010

Last call

Just spoke to mum, what will really be a last call for the next ten days. She sounded cheerful, and said she slept well. The lecture she went to was a mind-opener, as there were so many things she learned she cannot eat, or at least must eat in limited quantities. Sugar being one, as sugary substances will cause cancerous cells to multiply. The only thing that really brought her down was the fact that her hair has been falling again. A dozen on her pillow when she woke up. She is again afraid that she will loose all her hair, and said she might just have to go get a wig after all.

Mum sounded so cheerful and hopeful that I did not tell her about going back to the Netherlands tomorrow to see my friend, Carmen. I don't think it's lying, as mum does know that I'm going back, just not that it's suddenly become so soon. It's just not necessary to give her extra worry or anxieties to know that Carmen, also a friend of hers, is not doing well. Once mum invited her to visit Taiwan, and they were really planning it and getting excited about it. Now that trip seems so far away...

I just hope that mum will be able to do the meditation retreat and come out refreshed and with ease of mind. That will give her a real boost of confidence and give her the strength needed to wear the chemo sessions ahead. Metta....

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