26 May 2008

Little girl


She was probably no more than five. Perhaps even younger. A pink sweater, pink jacket, pink shoes and pink little socks. Pink from head to toe, the colour of a girl in the prime of her childhood. But she wore a hat, a cough mask, and a deadly illness.

I have yet to see a younger patient in the oncology ward. Then again, perhaps I have been privileged not to. At first I thought the little girl was there to be with her mum, like I was. But the thinning few hairlets beneath her gray hat said otherwise. The nurse came, and from under the girl's bright pink sweater produced a long tube into which a large dose of medicine was injected through a big syringe. Almost too big compared to the girl's small size. I cringed at the sight... and imagined the fluids enter the girl's blood vessels and saw the molecules of toxins flood her body in search of the cancerous cells eating her from the inside out.

While the nurse gave the mother a number of tubes and a number of instructions, the girl hopped happily away to another table to begin breakfast. My mum rested in the chair next to mine, tired eyes closed as her own medicine was injected. I looked down to read my paper...

"Over 70.000 feared dead in Sichuan"...
"2million affected in Myanmar"...
"Protests mount as food and oil prices rise"...

As usual, the faces and words of the world's human(itarian) tragedies paint the frontpage. In the very room, the sound of choking and gagging made me look up again. Out of the girl's mouth soft coughing sounds echoed in the quiet room. She put down her chopsticks, and dropped the eggroll on the table, unable to take another bite. She gagged even more, as if wanting to throw up, but nothing came out. Was that a tear in the corner of her eyes? A painful scene to watch.

"Ay, you've only taken three bites! How will you grow strong and big if you eat so little?" the mother said softly, patting her daughter on the back.
"I can't eat any more...", the girls answered, sat back and watched her dangling feet and peered around the room. A drab-looking room filled with the smell of chemicals and disinfectants, as well as sick patients, of which she has become one as well.

Indeed... how will the little girl ever grow big and strong?

20 May 2008

Around Formosa


Long, long ago, when European sailors cruised the Eastern Pacific in search of new lands to explore, they saw an island rise vaguely in the tranquil blue ocean. Dolphins, and perhaps even big whale, may have greeted them as these sailors sailed closer. Lush mountains, towering majestically ever higher over one another, caught their imaginations. What beauties lie there, what treasures are hidden, they may have wondered. "Ilha Formosa!", the sailors exclaimed in their native Portuguese. "Beautiful Island" the land they had just stumbled across indeed really is.

Fast forward a few hundred years, and a traveler has just made a similarly long and arduous journey to Formosa, back to his roots... back to discover what beauties lie there still waiting to be explored.

After the rather emotional ceremony commemorating 100 days after my dad's death, mum and I decided to take a trip down south. We boarded the Taiwan High Speed Rail, and within 90 minutes found ourselves some a couple of hundreds of kilometres in the south of the island, where the climate is tropical and at times dramatically different from the damp and temperate north. An uncle of mine lives in the port city of Kaohsiung (高雄), traditionally the industry capital of Taiwan. A decade ago people would have thought of the city as a run-down, heavily polluted and industrised, and covered in smog and with a smelly river running through it. But today it is much different. A new metro system just opened, and the city is booming with tall skyscrapers and glitzy shopping malls and department stores. The pace of life is much slower than in Taipei, the streets better organised and less crowded, and the locals are much more friendlier. Where defunct warehouses and paddy fields used to be, today there are new residential areas and big green parks.

We were taken aback by how much has changed. Next to sampling the local delicacies, we toured the sights in and around Kaohsiung with my uncle's family. Like always, my two little cousin were really a joy to be around with. Though I only see them once every year or so, they have really grown, not only in size but also matured much as well. They somehow remind me every time of my brother and I when we were little, and they even look and behave like us! I played with them, went cycling with them at night, and they seemed all too happy to go wherever I went or do whatever I wanted to do, as if I was some kind of idol for them, which takes some getting used to.

Together, we toured an old sugar plantation in Chiaotou (橋頭) , and like all tourist attractions in Taiwan on a weekend, it was full of people, munching or drinking away. Escaping the crowds we walked towards an almost empty part of the plantation, where old Japanese-styled houses have stood for since the beginning of the last century. Most of the houses are rows of dormitories, with broken windows and missing doors and walls as evidence of the neglect and abandon. A shame, I thought to myself, but again a typical phenomenon of a newly industrialised country and society like Taiwan, which seeks to build bigger, newer and taller buildings, but fail to recognise the beauty or cultural significance of the heritage or history of our ancestors. Nowhere else in the world can you find red-brick walls, slanted black-tiled roofs, sliding doors and tatami floors all in the same structure. All these simple elements reflect the many influences Oriental and Occidental that the islanders have undergone throughout the centuries, which combine to make interesting architectural and anthropological study.

A little railway line ran next to these dormitories, and in its glory days used to transport tonnes of sugar cane up and down the country for export. Today sugar no longer enjoys the prices or demand it used to, and in its stead, computer chips and wafers have become Taiwan's main export. Nowadays, only a limited stretch of the line is still in use, and sugar cane has become the few tourists who are willing to bear the smell and racket of a slow chugging diesel engine. The line runs through rice paddies, and unfortunately also rampant graveyards... or "nightclubs", as locals call them, because graveyards are reputed to be more 'alive' at night.

On the isle of Chijin (旗津), just outside of Kaohsiung Port, we enjoyed the afternoon sunset, and watched big cargo ships go by. There we stood, at the mouth of one of the world's busiest ports, and climbed the hills to where once a formidable fortress stood to ward off pirates. Across the water was the red-brick building which housed the former British Consulate to Formosa, which was in use in the days when the big powers still had interest in this island. Even up to the early seventies, American naval ships and marines were stationed at Kaohsiung to defend against the threat across the Taiwan Strait. Today, only cargo ships and fishing vessels come and go, and those days seem long gone. Dipping my feet in the water, that seemed to grow stronger and stronger by the minute, I looked out into the distance, and saw a low haze of mist shroud the horizon. Thinking about it, my feet have touched so many different waters in the last few weeks, and it still seemed surreal that I was actually there, with my mum and relatives once again.

The village of Meinung (美濃) has preserved much of the culture and traditions of the Hakka people, which are one of the four peoples of Taiwan (the others being Taiwanese, Chinese and 12 different Aboriginal peoples). The Hakka are wellknown for their attitude of hardwork and togetherness, and since their immigration to the island have grouped together to form successful agricultural communes that dot the island which produce abundant and high-quality crops and rice. Most famous for their paper-umbrellas and signature blue dresses for women, in the village we could also see lots of toys made of bamboo and broken tin cans and jugs that bring back nostalgic memories of a Taiwan before concrete and glass buildings, before the age of 7-Eleven and Starbucks.

In the surrounding villages were beautiful mountains that stretch for hundreds of kilometers eastwards and northward to form the Central Mountain Range. In the light rain, we traveled into the mountains a bit, snaking through narrow roads that followed a dried riverbed deeper and deeper inland, where the fog grew dense and the cicada calls and birdsongs grew more intense. Down in a creek we played, cooling our tired feet in the water, while competing who could throw stones and make them bounce and bounce across the surface. In the distance, the tops of mountains seemed to appear and vanish behind a thin veil of mist and drizzle like shy children unwilling to show their faces too long.

But it did not take long before I could see what lay behind that wall of mountains that stretched into the distance. Who would have thought that my uncle kindly invited us to stay at a resort located in Hualien in Eastern Taiwan, and even bought us the train tickets to get there. He said my mum really needed a break, from city life, from her therapy and from everything else that has been happening. And so we boarded the train and for the first time ever, I traveled on the
South Link line (南迴鐵路), which links Kaohsiung with the less accessible parts of the island. The line effectively makes a U-turn before heading northwards again along the eastern sea coast.

After passing through a number of very long tunnels, as my eyes were just getting used to the bright sunlight, there, before me, lay the blue, blue Pacific. Beautiful turquoise closer to the black sandy shoreline, turning darker blue in the distance, with white waves washing silently onto the shore. In the distance, little fishing boats rocked gently on the waves, while vague silhouettes of offshore islands loomed in the outer seas. On the other side, a row of mountains, lush and green, each with different faces, all competing with one another to stand tall and broad in the radiant sunlight. The train slid through the valleys, snaking through tunnel after tunnel, and climbed along cliff edges until eventually we reached our destination.

The weather was not all too pleasant to begin with when we arrived, and it rained the whole afternoon and night. We walked through the resort, and chitchatted the time away on a rocking chair near the pond, where swarms of fish begged with open mouths for us to feed them.
Though it was raining, the birds sang and flew around us freely, and in the distance mountains changed their faces with the coming and waning of drifting clouds of mist. The next morning, we woke up early, to a lightly overcast sky, and decided to go cycling in the area. On our bikes, we rode to the riverside, across the broad estuary and ventured into the lands of the Amis Aboriginals (阿美族).

For thousands of years, this island originally belonged to the dozen or so Aboriginal tribes. More than anyone else who live on Taiwan, the aboriginals are the true Formosa islanders, who have for generations lived in harmony with the land and the sea, worshiped the rocks and mother nature, and prayed to their ancestors and the skies for a good harvest. Some anthropologists say that given the strong linguistic and cultural ties with the Austronesian people, it may be that those Aboriginals in the Polynesians and Australia are descendants of Formosan aboriginals who sailed the oceans tens of thousands of years ago. With the influx of Han (Hokkien/Hakka) immigrants starting around four hundred years ago, the Aboriginals were forced to give up their lands and to take refuge in the mountains. For a long time, the government wrongly labeled Aboriginals as "Mountain People" (山地人), for it was through military actions and forced expulsions that many of the Aboriginals moved towards the mountain areas.


Though many of the Ami (and other Aboriginals) have today been assimilated into Taiwanese society, their culture and history remains intricately woven with the nature and land, and today ecotourism as well as agriculture seems to be their main sources of income. The government has made reserves to protect these rare peoples, whose language and population are dwindling fast due to the lure of urban life elsewhere. Unemployment as well as alcoholism is rampant in these forgotten rural areas of the country. Few walk around aboriginal villages in their traditional clothes, but they are very recognisable by their darker skin tones and much bigger and sturdier body build and facial features. Especially the Amis women are praised for their beauty, and social life is reputed to be based on a matriarchy. Also well-known is their singing and chanting, of which the Amis "Jubilant Drinking Song" was illegallly stolen by Enigma to produce their world-wide hit "Return to Innocence".

We cycled past paddies of rice, fields of watermelon, as well as plantations overgrown with passion fruit, bananas, pineapples and sugar-apples (locally known as Sakya (釋迦), named after the Buddha Sakyamuni, because the fruit resembles the shape of his head). Wild Formosan White Lilies decorate the sides of the road, while mountains stretched like curved back of a resting majestic dragon into the horizon. Birds sang gaily, and butterflies fluttered around in the green grass, as wild dogs slept in the middle of the road. No wonder the locals are so at peace with their surroundings and with nature. In the valley below, there were the ugly and polluting quarry and nosiy, massive trucks. These monsters ferried free sand dug from the riverbed and rocks cut from the mountains to be sold in the cities that demanded more and more cement and concrete for the erection of unearthly tall buildings in the drive for urbanisation and economic growth.

We left the sleepy village at the foothills of the mountains, and headed home. Back to the urban jungle, where the singsong of birds are drowned out by the din of cars and construction, back to the overgrown mass of buildings, where trees and greens seem a rarity. Another face of Taiwan, hundreds of kilometres away, has somehow managed to maintain its beauty and serenity.

15 May 2008

100 Days


It was difficult to hold back the tears. After all this time, after all the exciting and eventful days since February, I was kneeling before dad again. The scent of incense filled the air, together with the hummed chanting of a Buddhist prayer. It was so very still in the temple, while outside the winds howled and seas waved to welcome the oncoming storm brewing in the Pacific.

Earlier this morning I had another intense dream that left me emotionally drained. In the dream I saw a Formosan Mountain Dog, which lay on the ground, struggling for life, its chest heaving as it tried to catch a few last breaths. Immediately I was overwhelmed, and I could feel my eyes bulge and nose start to water from the strong sympathy I felt for the dying creature. Its fur was so soft, such a warming kind of brown, and its eyes so powerful, yet a soothing type of black. Coincidentally, the other day I saw a similar kind of dog, which came up to me and we bonded almost instantly.

Back at the temple, we commemorated 100 Days since dad's death. My mum and I had prepared 12 dishes of food, rice and soup, and offered it before dad. As tradition dictates, the 100th day is an important event, and should be celebrated grandiosely with an elaborate feast and offerings. We bought stacks of paper money, and 'treasure chests' filled with (imitation) gold, clothes, shoes, cash and jewelries that we burned so that dad could use it in the Underworld. On the boxes of offerings we had to write correct address and name, so that it is delivered correctly to dad. A fascinating ritual that has been passed down throughout the millennia, and that is still so much more alive in Taiwanese society than anywhere else in the world. It was a lot of paper, and a lot of smoke and pollution. I dryly commented that perhaps it might have been much easier to just offer a credit card to dad, perhaps a Visa, since it is accepted almost everywhere.

I told dad about the things that have been happening, and that are still to happen... the success of my work, the congratulations, praise and standing ovation I received from some 200 people... the excitement and fun I had on my travels to Israel and elsewhere... the scholarship I received for the summer course in Spain starting end of June... the fellowship from Boeing I received that will realise my dream of studying in Canada... Will he be proud of me, I wondered... Will he also bask in my joy and glory, as I move on and forward with my life, and seem to be enjoying one spell of good luck after another? Thinking of that, I felt greatly saddened. But somewhere deep within, I also felt so grateful to my dad, because somehow he seems to be helping me and guiding me, even though he is no longer there with me.

It was this thought, one that I have in those moments of sadness and times of pride, that continue to accompany as I go on.

13 May 2008

Mission Accomplished!



This "Mission Accomplished" is no empty a-la-Bush gesture. I rushed up the five flights of stairs as my mum opened the door home. She was so happy to see me, the joy expressed in her broad smile. I set down my suitcase and gave her a big hug. I am home.

This whole covert mission codenamed Operation "Go Home" took almost two months of meticulous planning, and every bit of it was executed splendidly. An international mission involving a strong Coalition of the Willing (to let Me Stay for Free) based in London and Singapore, three cross-border flights totaling 17 flight hours, including one on the latest Airbus A380. And it was done on a low-budget and with one suitcase, as well as the cooperation and silence of those few people who knew of my mission.

The objective, to surprise my mum and spend some time with her, and also commemorate 100 days since my dad's death. The target (my mum) really had no idea, not even the slightest hint or inkling, which really contributed to the mission's success even more!

Funny thing is, throughout these number of weeks I had dropped hints here and there to my mum. I had for example asked her a number of times to confirm when the big ceremony for my dad would take place. And last week, I had told her I would be going to London, and going away "for a number of days". On Sunday, Mother's Day, I called my mum and told her that I would be "going home on Tuesday". And last night as soon as I landed in Taipei, I called her and told her that I was at the airport, and that I would "be home within the hour".

At first, she just thought I was back in The Netherlands, despite the fact there was a loud person in the background speaking in Taiwanese. A hilarious moment, and I thought that would give everything away.

"Do you know at which airport I am?" She had no clue.
"Taoyuan International Airport!" There was a little silence, and then the shock. "WHAT?! You came home? WHY?!" she asked, still in disbelief. Later I learnt that as soon as she heard I was home, tears almost flowed from joy. I was laughing out loud, feeling like a mischievous boy up to no good, but knowing that this entire plan was something I am glad I had been able to accomplish, and that it will hopefully give her the boost of energy and joy to go on despite the odds and pains of her illness.

I rode home, feeling like the bus was not going as fast as it could. Outside, the familiar sights, lights and buildings of Taipei arose horizon, and soon enough I was in the midst of the busi-ness of the city again.

Three flights and a flight of stairs, and I was home again.

Leaving Singapore


Sitting in the departure lounge of Changi Airport. Free wireless internet for all, dazzling marble concourses, good variet of shops and restaurants, massage chairs and foot therapy for those jetlagged travellers. No wonder for a number of years this aiport has won the
Best Airport of the World Award.

I have actually been here a number of times, and seen most of what this little country no bigger than the Randstad has to offer (and for someone like me who does not like shopping and malls, there seems not to be a lot). But each time I have a good time, thanks to my friend (of course...) and the mix of cultures Singapore is famous for.

There may not be chewing gum or Playboy (let alone Playgirl) for sell in Singapore, but something must be said for this miraculous city-state that is so orderly and squeaky clean. People hear may speak with an odd broken form of English, but it is a living testament to a country and culture that is composed of the bests of Chinese, Malay, Tamil and Western peoples that are able to function successful in a truly multicultural and multiethnic society. For someone like me, who speaks Mandarin and Hokkien and English (among others), it feels comforting that these languages are used so interchangeably, sometimes in the very same sentence, and people can still understand what you mean. A blend that somehow fuses wonderfully together and brings out the best of differnt worlds. Little enclaves of different peoples with different origins and religions lie next to one another, just as a mosque, Buddhist temple and Christian chapel can be easily found as close neighbours. Next to colonial style government buildings are staggeringly tall office towers and glitzy shopping malls, overlooking a waterfront that see some of the world's heaviest shipping traffic, with in the backdrop Sentosa Island that is awash with theme parks and artificial beaches and palm trees. And despite the one-party rule, and stories of deported critical journalists or bankrupted opposition party members (I will stop here before I test the limits and am denied boarding...), the Lee family has managed to transform what used to be a backwater, mosquito infested swampy island into a high-tech and sophisticated economic centre and export hub in the Asia-Pacific. This is what makes this country Uniquely Singapore (the official slogan of the Singapore tourism board).

As wonderful as Singapore is, it is time to leave again, and within moments from now I will be boarding a low-budget plane. JetStar Asia (owned by Qantas) that will take me home to Taiwan. The airline is so low-budget that my boarding pass is nothing more than a piece of receipt you could easily mix up with something you get after buying a cup of coffee.

But at least it is cheap, and cheap travel means I can far and wide, and go home.

11 May 2008

Airbus A380




As the newly selected Boeing Fellow, I have a duty to be critical of the rival's latest product. And so I will begin.

Immediately upon boarding, I could feel the sweltering heat. Though I had just boarded the Singapore Airlines flight from London to Singapore, it felt like I was already in the tropics though the plane was still grounded and delayed by almost quarter of an hour due to congested traffic. This is probably more due to the overcrowding at Heathrow, which was still fighting with a run-down and leaky Third-World-Class Terminal 1... or perhaps the fact that Heathrow was still getting adjusted to the baggage handling problems of the brand-new Terminal 5 building, which had cost a fortune, and managed to lose 25,000 lugguages and cancel 5000 flights in its first days of operations. You would think the world's largest and newest airliner should enjoy priority in taking off, certainly as compared to the other planes on the tarmac, my plane was dwarfing in size and awing to look at. But we were queing at position number seven, before we could hurtle down that runway.



So you could almost see the heat move in the cabin, and moments later I learned from the captain that the air conditioning system had "malfunctioned". The ground staff could not repair the problem, so the 500plus passengers were left sweating in their seats, fanning themselves with whatever pieces of paper they could get their hands on. It was not until we had reached a good cruising altitude that the temperatures in the minus fifties managed to cool the cabin down.


I picked up the In-Flight entertainment system, and was at first glance impressed that there was even the opportunity for those busy travellers to do word-processing, manage their pictures and even some PDF-file reading in the comfort of their own seats. But a few hours into the flight, while trying to jump between the number of movies that were on offer, the TV malfunctioned. I quickly turned off the TV, but it would switch on again automatically and display the "blue screen of death". It was as if the screen was toying with me, and after a number of times turning the thing on and off, I was left feeling very embarrased that I had clumsily just broken something on Singapore Airlines' flagship aircraft. I swear I am normally not such a technology retard.



Luckily for me, all the TV needed was a few hours to cool down, and it seemed to miraculously repair itself. In the meantime, I entertained myself by walking around the double-decked airplane and the later pride of Airbus, and catching glimpses of the wing flap that my very own brother had been involved in designing.




And to be honest, this is where the criticisms end. I was in love with the airplane even before it made its first debut flight back in October 2007, and I had especially flown to London to take advantage of what currently is only one of two routes operated by Singapore Airlines with the new Airbus A380. Admitted, there were delays after delays as cash-strapped EADS (parent company of Airbus) tried to assure investor that the plane would be delivered ontime, but the wait was worth it. A maginificent flying giant with a wingspan of almost 80meters and standing at almost eight storeys high, it was impressive just to look at. I was filled with pride and felt like people were oogling me as I boldly entered the specially-designed departure gate.


I had chosen my seat online, and decided to sit on the main-deck, right next to the window overlooking the wing. My brother had specially asked me to take pictures of the flaps that would retract and extend during take-off and landing, and it did feel somwhat comforting that that very vital piece of the plane was designed by him.
It was difficult to imagine how this 500 tonne machine could ever take-off, but take off it did, with such grace and so little noise. Normally, other planes at take-off would make hideous gargling noises as the engines power up and swallow all the energy that they could muster for this critical moment of flight. But for the A380, and four Trent900 engines, it was like a breeze. After racing for a few moments, the plane gently lifted off of the ground, as you could see jets of air make their way over the wings. I could have slept through the whole procedure, if it were not for the fact that I was sitting directly above the landing gears that made a loud thumping noise as it retracted shortly after lifting off. Plane-spotters on the ground looked on with awe as we took off and banked almost a complete circle to follow the correct direction towards Asia.






In the cabin that was longer than the rival Boeing747 by more than a meter, the seats were comfortably placed in a 3-4-3 configuration, which meant even in Economy Class, there was plenty of leg room, and plenty of space to resist the incursions of over-weight passengers next to you. The cabin was warmly lit and had a modern feel to it that was accentuated with modern-art paintings that hung on the bare walls. The lighting system can even dim or intensify gradually for the passengers to stir from their sleep before breakfast could be served. The seats could be leaned back quite a lot, and this did not come at great discomfort to whoever was unfortunate to sit behind you. The table in front of you had even a little mirror you could use to do your make up; essential for the vain international law student who needs to look his very best at all times.

Unfortunately, for those sitting on the lower deck we could no go upstairs. But from pictures, I could see how grand and luxurious the new Suites were, which allowed those who could afford it the comfort and privacy of a personal compartment. Cheap students, even those with a scholarship in Air and Space Law, had to make do with coach class, but it was no less a pleasant experience.

Twelve hours the flight took, and I do not think I managed to sleep much. Most likely due to the excitement of being the first person I know to have the privilege of flying such a modern and beautiful plane, but partly also because it was 'morning' for me. And in those rare moments when I could get a little wink, the stewardesses had come around to sell the sought-after models of the A380, which by the time I had woken up, were unfortunately all sold out.


But my pictures and own experience were mine alone, and mine alone to take with me at all times.






08 May 2008

Reflections before a journey


I left the office for the last time. It has been over one and a half years since I started being involved in that job, at first a lowly assistant, and more recently a coordinator. I know, leaving that door, that I had nothing to be concerned about, because I did the best I could to the very best of my abilities, and I have nothing to regret, nothing to ponder on. I could just leave the office, and that job, and leave.

And I am moving on. In the past weeks I have been really travelling a lot and to far away places. Now, it seems I will be going even further, not just because I am flying back home to Taiwan to surprise my mum, but also because I have been selected to attend this prestigious summer course in Spain in July and August, and straight after that I will be flying off to Canada to begin a new life. Travel, travel, it seems I am really moving and going places.

Sometimes things are happening so fast and all at once, I wish time would stop a bit for me to reflect. On what has been happening, on how it is changing my life (for better or for worse), and what direction I should go. But really, I am someone who seems to just go, oftentimes without thinking too much where I am going. And somehow life has taken me places exciting and unexpected.

I guess I am very fortunate... or just patient, and as people say, good things come to those who wait. Some four months ago I submitted the application for what people say is the best university in Canada, and a reputable one in North America, and even ranked 12th in the whole world. Anyways, besides all this fame and glory, I submitted the application, not thinking too much about it, and not even sure whether I would be taken. Alongside the application, I also applied for a great scholarship, which will basically cover almost all costs of study and living. I wrote these pompously worded applications and motivation letters, praising the institution I am going to, and saying what great experiences and grades I have had.

Four months passed by without a word. And suddenly, the mail comes through the post, saying I have been chosen to be admitted to the course, and also that I will receive a fellowship position provided by the Boeing Company! Two excitements in as many number of days!

Compared to half a year ago, things are really looking up, and I am really moving on. For this all, I am extremely grateful... to all those people who have supported and encouraged me to go on and go through with what then seemed like a crazy and life-changing plan, but what today is within finger's reach. And somehow, the other day as I was reading the acceptance letter, my mind thought of my dad... how proud he must be! How he has been there, to support and encourage me as well, in his special silent ways.

Reflections before a journey


I left the office for the last time. It has been over one and a half years since I started being involved in that job, at first a lowly assistant, and more recently a coordinator. I know, leaving that door, that I had nothing to be concerned about, because I did the best I could to the very best of my abilities, and I have nothing to regret, nothing to ponder on. I could just leave the office, and that job, and leave.

And I am moving on. In the past weeks I have been really travelling a lot and to far away places. Now, it seems I will be going even further, not just because I am flying back home to Taiwan to surprise my mum, but also because I have been selected to attend this prestigious summer course in Spain in July and August, and straight after that I will be flying off to Canada to begin a new life. Travel, travel, it seems I am really moving and going places.

Sometimes things are happening so fast and all at once, I wish time would stop a bit for me to reflect. On what has been happening, on how it is changing my life (for better or for worse), and what direction I should go. But really, I am someone who seems to just go, oftentimes without thinking too much where I am going. And somehow life has taken me places exciting and unexpected.

I guess I am very fortunate... or just patient, and as people say, good things come to those who wait. Some four months ago I submitted the application for what people say is the best university in Canada, and a reputable one in North America, and even ranked 12th in the whole world. Anyways, besides all this fame and glory, I submitted the application, not thinking too much about it, and not even sure whether I would be taken. Alongside the application, I also applied for a great scholarship, which will basically cover almost all costs of study and living. I wrote these pompously worded applications and motivation letters, praising the institution I am going to, and saying what great experiences and grades I have had.

Four months passed by without a word. And suddenly, the mail comes through the post, saying I have been chosen to be admitted to the course, and also that I will receive a fellowship position provided by the Boeing Company! Two excitements in as many number of days!

Compared to half a year ago, things are really looking up, and I am really moving on. For this all, I am extremely grateful... to all those people who have supported and encouraged me to go on and go through with what then seemed like a crazy and life-changing plan, but what today is within finger's reach. And somehow, the other day as I was reading the acceptance letter, my mind thought of my dad... how proud he must be! How he has been there, to support and encourage me as well, in his special silent ways.

Reflections before a journey


I left the office for the last time. It has been over one and a half years since I started being involved in that job, at first a lowly assistant, and more recently a coordinator. I know, leaving that door, that I had nothing to be concerned about, because I did the best I could to the very best of my abilities, and I have nothing to regret, nothing to ponder on. I could just leave the office, and that job, and leave.

And I am moving on. In the past weeks I have been really travelling a lot and to far away places. Now, it seems I will be going even further, not just because I am flying back home to Taiwan to surprise my mum, but also because I have been selected to attend this prestigious summer course in Spain in July and August, and straight after that I will be flying off to Canada to begin a new life. Travel, travel, it seems I am really moving and going places.

Sometimes things are happening so fast and all at once, I wish time would stop a bit for me to reflect. On what has been happening, on how it is changing my life (for better or for worse), and what direction I should go. But really, I am someone who seems to just go, oftentimes without thinking too much where I am going. And somehow life has taken me places exciting and unexpected.

I guess I am very fortunate... or just patient, and as people say, good things come to those who wait. Some four months ago I submitted the application for what people say is the best university in Canada, and a reputable one in North America, and even ranked 12th in the whole world. Anyways, besides all this fame and glory, I submitted the application, not thinking too much about it, and not even sure whether I would be taken. Alongside the application, I also applied for a great scholarship, which will basically cover almost all costs of study and living. I wrote these pompously worded applications and motivation letters, praising the institution I am going to, and saying what great experiences and grades I have had.

Four months passed by without a word. And suddenly, the mail comes through the post, saying I have been chosen to be admitted to the course, and also that I will receive a fellowship position provided by the Boeing Company! Two excitements in as many number of days!

Compared to half a year ago, things are really looking up, and I am really moving on. For this all, I am extremely grateful... to all those people who have supported and encouraged me to go on and go through with what then seemed like a crazy and life-changing plan, but what today is within finger's reach. And somehow, the other day as I was reading the acceptance letter, my mind thought of my dad... how proud he must be! How he has been there, to support and encourage me as well, in his special silent ways.

05 May 2008

Au revoir, Strasbourg

I left in the morning, on an empty train, in the lazy sun. The world was just beginning to stir, and I was still drowsy from lack of sleep. Yet I knew this would be the last time I would be leaving the station at Strasbourg for a long time to come.

Yesterday, I saw online that my long awaited application for studies coming September has been approved. This means, there is a very high probablity of me packing my bags and moving to Canada very soon. As soon as I read that news, I was delighted, as it signals a new start and break from the mundane life here in Europe. But at the same time, it also means that I will be gone an indefinite time, if not never to return to here again.

I kissed my godson goodbye, unsure when I would see him again. And yesterday, as I walked through the narrow streets of Strasbourg, I was feeling a little melancholy. I realised I have been somewhat connected to the city in a special way, mostly by my friend and her child. In the past two years, I have been there and back no less than six times, for a birth, for Christimases, for birthdays. When Aslan was still a growing foetus, I was there. When Aslan was born, I went there. And now, almost two years old, happy and becoming more and more an individual, I was there. But I wonder whether I will be able to be a bigger part of his life, as he grows older.

Au revoir, Strasbourg. If I remember correctly there was a novel or movie with the exact same title. It was about the end of French control over this beautiful city, after the successful conquest of the Germans in the Franco-Prussian War in 1870. "Au revoir" ("till meeting again"), because on a fateful day, history in the city would change forever, and German would become the overruling language and culture of a city that has for centuries been French (or at least, Alsatian). It was not known to the people when again they would see their old and inherent culture and country back again.

Au revoir, Strasbourg. My parting from Strasbourg was not as dramatic or sentimental. But a part of me will miss the city... miss the walks on the banks of the Ill with my godson's hand in mine, miss the night walks under the yellow lighting on cobblestone streets, miss the majestic buildings that adorn the old parts of the city, miss the large expanses of greenery in the parks and forests nearby. Mostly, I will miss my friend, and my godson, whom I have grown attached to after these two years of visiting them, and taking care of them, whenever I could.

When will we meet again?

03 May 2008

"David!"



It is unimaginable how difficult it is to take care of a baby. Just being with one alone for a couple of hours is exhausting. My godson's sleeping next to me now, tired from an entire morning of 'sword fighting' with a badminton racket and vacuum machine tube, overly excited from watching disc after disc from his huge Disney DVD collection.

How quiet he is, silently snoring, his little stomach falling and rising with the rythmic breathing and with the beating of his little heart. What a precious little being, and almost two.

I have been here three days, and we seem to be getting closer. No longer does he start to scream when I try to hold him. When he hurt his little finger playing earlier, he walked up to me, and stretched his arms out, wanting me to hug him, to hold him, to comfort him. I held him on my shoulder, and whispered in his ears. "It's alright... It's alright... Aslan is a big boy." He seemed to understood, and stopped crying. A tear, streaking half way down his soft cheek, stopped in its track. And he smiled. He looked deeply into my eyes, as I stroked the sore part of his finger, and he smiled ever so sweetly.

There are those moments, such as those, which are so precious that it moves you. Looking into a baby's eyes, it seems as if you are looking into your own... deep down inside, an innocent and curious creature is playing around and exploring the world still. And when he graps onto your fingers, and clings close to your body, you would you wish the moment would last.

But a baby is a curious little being, and every moment something new attracts its attention, and off he goes to touch, feel, play, and be up to something that will make you have to clean up long after he has moved on to fumble with another thing that he really should not be touching. Especially my godson could be such a handful. Even his nanny has commented that he is "one naughty after another naughty"... one moment he could be playing with his mother's makeup kit, drawing his own legs and knees with black eyeliner, and the next minute he could have his fingers on the bucket, and just before you try to stop him, the mop will have fallen, and dirty water will have spilled all over the place. As you try to mop the floor clean, he is playing with the kitchen cupboard, and taking out all sorts of noodle bits and trying to build something on the floor. You tell him "No!" and he goes into his room, and starts to bang the door loudly, again, and again and again, till your ears are sore and mind starting to irritate. You raise your voice, but he looks back at you, appealing for sympathy, for after all, he is but a baby. But a clever and mischievous one at that.

In those moments when he has done something incredibly dangerous, like licking on a knife for left over bits of chocolate paste, or playing with the electric socket, I wonder how my mum used to be. Was I ever so naughty? Did I also make her feel like there is only so much more she could take? And yet, all these years, she has remained with me, given me love, warmth and care like no other in the world would. She did that, while having a long and tiring job, while having to take care of my brother and my dad. And there was me to take care, me, being the youngest and smallest of them all. How could I ever repay that, in any way?

I sit next to Aslan, sleeping still, and still sleeping. His breathing light and gentle. How peaceful he looks, how angelic and loving. Let no one take that peace and love from him.

27 April 2008

Istanbul: mini Europe and Asia

Istanbul first caught my sight as my plane ascended slowly and soared toward Israel. Gradually, the city's bright light captured my attention outside the little plane window. The higher the plane flew, the more of the city I was able to see. A bustling expanse of yellow lights, shining and straddling the tips of two world continents. I liked it as soon as I saw it.

Four days later, I would have another opportunity to see the city from close up. Transiting in Ataturk International Airport, I had around six hours before my onward flight. A friend of mine told me I would be risking it if I rushed to the city centre and did some sightseeing and then rushed back to catch my flight. But then again, he did not know how good I am with directions, and he certainly did not know how acute my 'rat' senses are in finding my way around foreign places.

Within half an hour of landing, I was riding the light railway toward the Sultanahmet. The elevated train passed commercial parks, highways, and apartment blocks, between which huge Turkish flags draped and flew majestically in the wind. Like Israel, this was another country where patriotism is a national hobby, and where insulting the country or Turkish identity is (in)famously liable for a hefty prison sentence. Thankfully there was no for me mention the Armenian Genocide.

Transferring to the city tram that would snake further toward my destination was a easy, as I seem to have a natural affinity with public transport systems in whichever city. I stood there, amid rush hour traffic, blending into the crowd of commuters of veiled women, business men in suits, and trendy youngsters on their way to school. Outside, the scenery reminded me of any other large European city, the only difference being the language, and this indescribably sense of vibrancy and energy that hung in the air. Of course, this was only Istanbul, and not at all representative of the whole of Turkey. But I did not feel a stranger here more than anywhere else I have been in Europe. And is this diversity and acceptance of difference what many Europeans fear? Yellow taxis vied with buses, automobiles and motorcycles for limited spaces on the congested narrow streets. The modern public tram seemed to leave this all behind, as it swiftly moved forward.

I searched for a good place to get off... should I go take the ferry first, or go see the renowned Blue Mosque? Or perhaps the Great Bazaar, or take the old funicular railway up the hill? In the end, it was my hungry stomach, and the sight of a long queue outside a bakery that made the decision for me. Within minutes, I was munching on croissant-like buns, and washing it down with freshly squeezed carrot juice. Believe me, four days of eating nothing but matza crackers, matza buns, matza everything, any bread, especially freshly baked and still warm in your mouth, was a heavenly delight.

Spilling my carrot juice all over myself I wandered the streets of Istanbul. The wind was freezing, and I had only a light hoody and sweater on, which meant I was shivering on the outside, but excited on the inside. The mighty Bosphorus called with its winds and waves, and I was attracted to it immediately. Close to the embankment, I could see the city with its split personality, sprawlingly divided on three shores. Ferries rode the waves to and fro, as trams and buses rushed on the roads and pedestrians swarmed the pavements, hurrying on their way to unknown destinations. I stood and watched all this buzzing energy around me, as the city and its life started to grow on me and entice me even more.

I boarded a random ferry, and set sail with the seagulls that flew next to me, escorting me out into the open waters. On the map, it seemed like no more than a broad river that separates the city into two, but out there on the mighty waves and in the fierce winds, you could not but be awed by the immensity of this channel that not only marks the physical divide between Asia and Europe, but also links the Black Sea with the Marmara and Mediterranean. Behind us, the ferry trailed a white confusion of bubbles and foam. Around us, in the distance not so far away, lay a fascinating mixture of ancient fortresses matching descriptions in 1001 Arabian Nights. Here and there, dotted the soaring minarets of majestic mosques next to swarms of colourful buildings of all shapes and sizes, of origins Oriental and Occidental, with in the background a host of towering modern skyscrapers. Normally, before visiting a place I would have all the history and background of famous buildings mapped out in my head, but this ignorance from not knowing what I was looking at was a strange form of bliss. I could just sit back, relax, pull on my clothes to keep warm, and enjoy the scenery.

I wandered through the cobbled streets, unsure where I was going. But my feet somehow took me to a mosque (which I later learned was the New Mosque, built in 1663). Never have I been so close to a mosque before, and I carefully tread into the hallowed grounds. I looked up, admiring the beautifully carved domes, the sharp spires of the minarets, and the gilded crescent moon, visible behind a flock of lowflying pigeons... Suddenly, I felt something brush against my feet, which immediately gave me the creeps. I looked down, and saw a pair of green eyes look back at me, softly and seeking attention. A sweet brown and white cat had parked herself on my feet, and was butting against my knees with her head, miouwing softly. My first and only friend in Istanbul, who seemed to want to follow me wherever I went. Except, she somehow knew not to enter the mosque when I did.

The high domed roof and glass-stained windows, colourfully decorated tiles on ceilings and walls, exotically carpeted floors, gilded railings and attractive calligraphy inscriptions together were beyond words. In the serenity of the mosque, I felt I was intruding, but then again my lonely presence was rivalled by the commotion of a group of tourists that entered as I turned to leave.

I ventured in an unknown direction, letting my feet and instincts lead the way. In a grass field were dazzling blooming tulips, right before me in the land where they originated from (thus not the Netherlands, despite common misconception). Going further, I was led into narrow alleyways that fed into other sidestreets, which flowed into yet other lanes that were full of shoppers. All sorts of merchandise, from fresh food to cloth to daily appliances to delicatessens to souvenirs were on display, and lead the way towards the famous Grand Bazaar. If going to the local market in The Hague was exciting, the experience in the Bazaar was bewildering. All those smells, sights and sounds was dizzying to experience at once, and I was torn between slowly admiring it all and the urge to soon find a way to the tram that will shuttle me to catch my flight. After haggling for some cheap souvenirs, and increasing my luggage load, I sped toward the exit, into the lazy midday sun, pushing past crowds of shoppers and vendors, and eventually found the stop where I needed to be.

On I went to the airport, on my way home. But I made it a promise to myself that one day soon I would come back here again.



Israel: Borderlands





In front of us were the white cliffs of Rosh Ha Nikra. Between us and the blue, blue Mediterranean, a stretch of white sand that stretch for 10 kilometres up to the Israeli-Lebanese border. Beneath us, bicycles we had stumbled and hopped on just moments before, and had ridden to get away from the unbearable traffic and din of the city.

We cruised down the beach, smiles on our faces. There is something about a bike, and the freedom that comes with it, that makes me so happy. It makes me so happy, that my friend noticed it, and how it made me smile like I have not done for a long, long time. It makes me happy to feel the breeze in my hair, to know that, for a few precious moments in life, I can be in total control of the way, and speed, to get to a place I want to go. For a person whose life is basically rudderless and going with the flow of things, that is a precious experience... just as precious as the beauty of the calm waves, the clarity and freedom of the mind and soul mixing with the humming sound of tires echoing on the path below.

All that water before me, silent, vast, and endless... Somehow it all connected with the all waters of the Pacific that wave so peacefully below the mountains where my late dad now rests. Like many moments in the past few days, moments in which I experience profound beauty and awe, I again could not but prevent myself thinking of him. Once more, I was reminded of how dad was missing all this, how he could never have a chance to experience and enjoy what I could, and still can... A gull called, and brought me back to the silent waves, to the whispering winds. My friend too seemed deep in thought.

On an empty stretch of beach we sat. If you just stared out to sea, if you just listened to the slight whisper of the warm wind next to your ears, you could not begin to imagine how surreal it is that less than two years ago, rockets were raining down on the very towns of Haifa and Nahariya (among others) that we had just passed by on the train journey northward. We were close to the borderlands, the area which three successive wars, and countless little scuffles, had left behind carcasses of rusty tanks and a deep entrenched scar made of barbed wire and outposts that ran on the top of the hills separating Lebanon and Israel. All it would take is a bullet, or some mad soldier, from either side and the would once again become the firing range triggered by deep-seated animosity and distrust. A sail boat, a fishing boat... and look closer, and you would see an Reshef-class rocketship waltzing around and keeping the peace in Israeli waters.


But further we did go. After doing the must-see Rosh HaNikra grottoes, pushing our way through the underground caves and past loud families with obnoxious children, we ventured toward the border. For us international lawyers, it seemed like the 'right' thing to do, even though I deep down I knew it was really risking a lot. Signs along the border constantly remind the wandering and daring tourist not to go any further. But we went further, as if they were not there. An Israeli army jeep stopped at a gate, where we stood and pretended to admire the sea that lay beneath our feet. The soldiers seemed to be aware of us, and did not leave the area until we made our way down the slopes again.

We did not return to the beach like 'normal' tourist would. Instead, we took a dirt path that lead to an area that was overgrown with wild shrubs, and that had picknick tables that seemed to have been out of use for a long, long time. Again, another sign warned us (with three exclamation marks) that the border was ahead, and told us to stop. But stop we did not, and instead seemed to taunt the warnings by going further. The lost boot of an unfortunate soldier randomly lay in the middle of the track, the skin dusty, torn and eroded in the blazing sun. Memorials rested on either side, dedicated to the pioneers who had laid the founding blocks of the towns and kibbutz in the area. A crème-coloured tank slept camouflaged in the bushes, its belly webbed over with cobwebs, the metal peeling with rust, the turret pointing out to the rocketship still leisurely sailing on the Mediterranean.

"Let's go up the hill," my friend said. I hesitated, because it looked steep, and to be honest I was a little afraid. Standing there in my bright blue swimming trunks was not exactly the best form of camouflage in an area notorious for kidnappings by Hezbollah fighters who would not flinch to snipe you from afar. And I knew, beyond that ridge, up there, we would be able to see Lebanon... and Lebanon would be able to see us.

I was still unsure, but this is when my own sense of insecurity contrasted greatly with my friend's feel for adventure. She was someone who relied on her natural instincts, who loved her freedom, and who acted on the whim of her feelings. She was one who would never let anyone tie her down or restrict her dreams or wishes. And for that I admired her... but to be honest sometimes was a little afraid of, for compared to her, I was a tame city-boy, afraid of a slight cut or a bruise.

She leapt ahead, and starting to climb. Rocks rolled under her feet, and triggered a little avalanche as loose pebbles slightly crumbled and tumbled down the hill. I followed, carefully, trailing the path that she had created before me. A sudden pain I felt through my shorts, and I turned to see that sharp needle-like thorns had poked themselves into my skin and made a number of scratches. I moved on up, regreting that perhaps my Birkenstocks may not have been the most clever climbing gear on this hill that was getting steeper. Looking up at the ridge above, at what lay beyond that corner, and at what may lie before us if we could make it up there, I silently wished we would make it up there without being noticed.

Then I slipped and fell, smashing to the ground on my side, and as I would later discover, smashing the camera I had stupidly put in my pocket. The pain was instant, as I had scraped my palm as I tried to stabilise and prevent myself from falling further. The camera struck my upper thigh, and I was sure I would bruise later. I did not want to continue any more, and momentarily started to shake from the fall, but I told my friend to go ahead, as I sat in the blazing heat and waited for her return.

Sitting there, halfway up the hill, surrounded by thorny bushes and shrubs, I felt like vulnerable. I tried to cover myself by pulling my shirt over my head, but it felt ridiculous. I looked around, and explored the land below... the town with well-maintained groves and green lawns, the stretch of white sands that shimmered in the hot afternoon sun, the gorgeous blue, blue hue of the sea that spread into the horizon. And here I was, alone in no-man's land, while my friend had gone on an adventure without me. Perhaps I was even being watched... by some bearded and hidden Hezbollah soldier... or by some wild creature hiding in the bushes nearby, that had earlier given us quite a scare. The melodramatic mind of mine wondered whether I would have to wait here until nightfall...

My pocket trembled. A text message from my friend. I turned around, to see her waving at me from the top of a large boulder on the hilltop. I waved back, relieved to see her, and mostly, to see her still alive and well. I made my way downhill, as agreed, and loitered around the bushes next to the defunct tank, and waited for her to appear. Ten minutes passed, then twenty, then another ten... but still there was no sign of her. I started to wander, and wonder where she had gone, and in my mind I recalled the terrible things I had read in the news what they do to kidnapped tourists or foreigners... terrible things. Ahead was the barbed high fence that cordoned off the abandoned picknick area, and which reminded me again that we should not have been there. A white fertiliser bag floated like a fallen balloon down the hill, and landed not far away. I picked it up, and started to wave it around, hoping it would get some attention, especially that of my friend, who seemed to have simply vanished. I dared not call or sms her, for fear that might trigger unwanted attention on her part. The rocketship still circled the bay, keeping a close watch, and in the distance I could hear the gentle rumble of jeep engines as they climbed the military road up toward the hill.

"Davvvvid...! Daviiiid!"

I walked up to her, and gave her a big hug, , excited to hear the sound of my friends voice, and relieved to see her image appear from behind the bushes. "You're alive!"

Of course she was. She has gone through so much adventure, so much more in her life, and come out strong and unscathed, if not stronger and more thick-skinned. And this little venture into one of the most potentially volatile places on Earth seemed no exception. Her smile, bravery and sense of personal accomplishment brushed away whatever fear or hesitation that was there, if ever they were there. Behind us, the border stretched, unmarked, still, and still deadly as ever.


We sat in the pool, our own private pool, and felt the sea weed tickle our feet. The water was colder than expected, the current strong, and I had difficulties standing on my feet. Waves washed again and again in my direction, trying to push me down, and make me stumble and fall. More than once I stubbed my toe, and felt the salt seep into the wounds and cuts from the jagged, potholed rocks. Below me was a world of fish and serene green, waiting to be explored, waiting to be visited, but choking on the sea water I could not but go up to the surface again, and feel the waves push me back ashore. I sat there, for a while, watched the waves brush by, watched the setting sun dance and sparkle on the surface of the sea. The same sea that connected with everything else half way around the world.

Behind us, the border stretched, the dangers, the warning signs, and the potential for an outbreak of war and raining rockets, far, far away.



26 April 2008

Israel: Sands from Different Lands




I clean my feet, and there are grains of sand between my toes.

Where did they come from? Are they Israeli or Palestinian?

Insignificant, only annoying little grains that get everywhere, in your shoes, on your clothes, in your bags, and sometimes if you are not careful, in your eyes. Brush them away, and they fall to the ground to rejoin countless others. They disappear, and blow away in the wind.

It does not really matter where they are from, at least not to a wandering tourist, who has the freedom of travel between lands, and who can bring sands to and from different lands. But to the Israeli or the Palestinian it is another story altogether. The reason being, they are divided. Not just by an "Apartheid Wall", or "separation fence" (even the same object has a different name for Palestinians and Israelis), but by the different mentalities, visions, histories and religions. One thing they do share is the land, and perhaps even the shared fate of having to co-exist and worship with one another. No where is this more visible than in the Holy City of Jerusalem.

To a non-believer of any of the world religions of Judaism, Islam or Christianity, the Old City's narrow alleyways, churches, synagogues and mosques perhaps hold little spiritual significance. But navigating the maze of criss-crossing cobble-stone paths and the tight spaces between tourists and hawkers, it is hard to imagine that this little piece of Earth brings together people from the world over. Whether for the women in hijabs, or kipa-wearing children, or for those with rosemary beads around their necks, the devotion and longing for refuge in their respective faiths and gods is pure. I can only admire from afar how men bow before the Wailing Wall, murmuring unintelligible words from the Tora, while white pieces of paper stuffed in every crack in the wall contain the prayers and dreams of individuals. Hopes of good health, wishes of success, desires for religious salvation, prayers for family and friends. Despite all our differences, we are united in our common humanity, and in our common desire for peace. I gently lay my palm on the Wall, and closed my eyes temporarily.

A few meters above, the gilded Dome of the Rock stands above Wailing Wall. Built on the site of Jews' Holy Temple, the Dome is believed to be where Mohammed ascended to heaven. In the confusion below, Via Dolorosa (Way of Sorrows) is said to be the very path that Jesus took with the cros on his shoulder, with along the way various stations (statio) where Jesus was condemned to death, where he encountered his mother Maria, and the points where he fell. Beyond the tall walls of the Old City, is a valley and green hill that is the sacred Mount of Olives, which appears at various points in the Bible. But my friend and I were not so much interested in the happenings and legends of a book written eons ago, but more in writing adventures that would remain in our minds.


Our feet took us beyond the walls of the Old City, and to the other side of Jerusalem. The billboards became scribbles in Arabic, and the faces and clothing of the people around us also changed. At Damascus Gate, we asked around for a sherut (shared taxi) which would take us to the ancient city of Jericho. Problem was, Jericho was situated in the Palestinian Territories. An Israeli soldier had earlier tried to discourage us going there, but of course any Israeli would say that about places where being an Israeli could potentially mean risking one's life by entering. We defied the warning, and boarded a minibus, crowded in between Palestinian Arabs. There is no better way to travel than with the locals.

The minibus escaped the crowd and heat of the city, and was soon cruising down the slopes beyond Jerusalem. The beautiful greenery of the Mount of Olives faded as we navigated toward the Palestinian Territories. Perched idyllically on top of hills, and enjoying a vantage point over the land below, were sturdily built mansions within Israeli settlements. Surrounding them, big fences and gates and barriers to keep out burglars, and Palestinians. The minibus chugged onward, made a turn, and the scenery began to change.

No more well-maintained and well paved roads, no more neatly decorated houses. Instead, the ride became bumpier with each pot-hole the tires jumped beneath us. The houses looked run-down, the streets were filled with uncollected garbage and the white-pollution of lost plastic bags, and randomly a camel or donkey was parked at a roundabout waiting to pick up passengers. Children ran in the streets, defunct tires, coke cans and wild shrubs their playground. Outside the window, a concrete slabs of gray rose in the distance, covered with graffiti and plastered with words of "Free Palestine", in scenes reminiscent of Berlin. What stark contrast.

For the first time, I realised that I was entering a place where I cannot read the language, as the script was in Arabic, and unlike the Romanised alphabets used in all the countries I have been before. Perhaps this, and especially the fact that we were unmistakably two naive tourists who are easy pray to unscrupulous profiteers, heightened my sense of alert, or even distrust of others. But these feelings subsided as we met kind people ready to help, and as the desert opened before us into a vast land and glistening sea before us, that outstretched like a magnificent painting.


Out of nowhere, a town appeared in the middle of the desert, sheltering at the foot of the Judean Mountains, some 250m below the sea level on the ridge of the Jordan Valley. Often said to be the oldest inhabited place of mankind, the history of the settlement dates back to over 11000 years. Indeed, the Old City of Jericho contains the ruined walls and skeletons of structures from thousands of years Before Christ. Despite the archaeological value of the site, it was poorly maintained, and even the fence that was supposed to keep people out of certain excavations were derelict and rusting in the desert sun. The Hisham Palace close by contained beautiful architecture dating from the Umayyad Dynasty (660-770), which chose the site as a hunting lodge. Beautifully carved columns, walls and moziac frescos adorn the floors and ceilings of the palace, but was completely destroyed by a series of severe earthquakes. Today the treasure that lay beneath our feet were covered in a deep layer of sand and neglect, and we had brush away the sand to discover what treasures lay around us.

The groundsman, a friendly Palestinian, spoke of the times before the Second Intifida, when busloads of tourists would visit Jericho and the nearby sacred Monastery of Temptation, where Jesus is said to have fasted for 40 days and nights and withstood the temptation of the Devil. We had to resist the constant nagging and pity-evoking begging of two young children who trailed behind us half way up the mountain. Today, few tourists come, and even the monastery was empty when we arrived.

"All the fault of the Israelis", the man said, bitterness and anger in his voice. I looked around his office and admired the posters with "Welcome to Palestine" written all over them. There was even one glorifying the late Yasser Arafat. "A hero. A good man," was the comment. Outside, the flag of Palestine flew in the wind, the same wind that would blow and blow and make an Israeli flag waver and flutter somewhere in the distance, far, far away. Close by, a bus full of children sang and clapped cheerily, and mischievous me was reminded of the scenes from a Palestinian children's programme which which he had seen earlier on Youtube .



I thought of the almost empty roads we had passed on the way into Jericho, and I thought of the Israeli checkpoint and the Palestinian checkpoint that we had to pass to get this far into Palestine. A hotel and casino on the outskirts of town is today providing space for mosquitos to reside in, as the Israeli tourists who before used to come here to relax now stay away due to the heightened state of security. Shacks dotted the main road, and signs identifying construction and developments projects funded by USAID and the EU could be seen here and there. The driver pointed to a refugee camp, where expelled Palestinians have been living in for 16 years, refugees who had been ousted of their homes and now live on the charity of a complacent international community. Beyond the wall of their camp is another wall, and barriers after barriers, which together prevent millions of Palestinians from a life of normalcy and of prospects of a better future. This is just the West Bank, and Jericho is still a relatively affluent town. The no-go area of Gaza, and surroundings is place where the livelihoods and lives of Israelis and foreigners cannot be fully guaranteed. Contrast this with the white-washed Presidential Compound, belonging to Arafat, which was only one of many he used to retreat to, or the well-to-do Israeli settlements behind high walls in the (occupied) fertile lands.

The sun was beginning to set, and we had to be on our way out of the Palestinian Territories. Curfew would begin in a couple of hours, and the safety of foreigners (trapped) behind the checkpoints of Israeli soldiers becomes ever more risky. We could show our passports, and the young Israeli soldier would friendlily smile at us (or even flirt), before we were on our way, back to Jerusalem, back to the relative peace and security of Israeli territory. But many more are not so lucky, if not privileged.

On my feet and sandals were the sands of Jericho, sands of the Palestinian Territories. Soon they would mingle with the sands of the Land of Israel.

And even sooner, noone would be able to tell which grain of sand is from which different land.